WHY aren't we together?! I just DON'T know anymore:(

Disguises help the Devil do his work.

--Viola. 

WARMAGE of the heart right now.

"I care about you a lot. Please let me be your servant so I can be with you. You’ll be killing me if you don’t."

"If you don't want to break my heart, then say goodbye to me right now. I like you very much. I'm really about to cry, just like my mother would do. I'm going, goodbye." 

"I wish you all the best. If I didn't have so many enemies where you're going i'd go join you there. But who cares, I'm so crazy about you that danger doesn't bother me. I'll go anyway"

Sebastian: She's been drowned in salty sea water,

and not my salty tears are about to drown her memory all over again.

KILL ME, Twelfth Night why don't you!:(

Falling like a leaf, falling like a star

Finding a belief, falling where you are.

I was afraid to let you in here

Now I have learned love can't be made in fear

Inspiration: 365 days a year.

March 7

Who has not served cannot command.

--John Florio. 

I'm standing here in your presence

thinking of all the great things you have done.

Inspiration: 365 days a year.

March 6

The most important thing about goals is...having one.

--Geoffry F. Abert. 

Inspiration: 365 days a year.

March 5

The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.

--Franklin Delano Roosevelt 

I've been dirtier than you wanna know
I've left earlier than you'll ever know

There's something about your name.

Inspiration: 365 days a year.

March 4

Remember, happiness doesn't depend on who you are or what you have; it depends solely upon what you think

--Dale Carnegie. 

I don't know what I'd ever do without You from the beginning to the end. You've always been here right beside me, so I'll call You my best friend. Through the good times and the bad ones, whether I lose or if I win. I know one thing that never changes and that's You as my best friend .

No matter what the people say,

I'm gonna love you anyways.

You are my life, and I can't let go.

Even if we fuss or fight

We'll try until we get it right

You are my life, I can't let go.

Even if we disagree,

You can put it all on me

But I can't let you go.

 

....and I won't.♥

JD: The sea is in love with the sand.

JB: How do you know?

JD: It keeps rushing back.

♥ this girl. Can't wait to see you this summer again!!

Inspiration: 365 days a year.

March 3:

You will become as small as your controlling desire; as great as your dominant aspiration.

-James Allen 

Inspiration: 365 days a year.

March 2:

The world is but a canvas to the imagination.

- Henry David Thoreau.

I've allowed myself to be touched by You Lord  because I seek to live your truth. You’ve stepped out and touched my soul MORE than you'll ever know.

 What a feeling to LOVE you Lord .

We live in an age when man is the authority (or so he thinks)

We must be careful to remember that we’re here to serve

And live as Christ did before he left this Earth.

& when the morning star rises in your heart....

...you'll seek the peace he gives. Then his words will become Alive in You.

If we just listen to the wisdom that You speak, You will give happiness that lasts eternally.

Inspiration: 365 days a year.

March 1:

As I grow older part of my emotional survival plan must be to actively seek inspiration instead of passively waiting for it to find me.

You're all I'm thinking of,

so why don't we, why don't we, why don't we fall in love?

Babe-Baby-Babey-Baybe♥

So many things I'm goin' through

So much that I wanna do

It startin' to become so clear to me

Tomorrow ain't really guaranteed.

Do you know why a car's WINDSHIELD is so large & the rear view mirror is so small? Because our PAST is not as important as our FUTURE. So, look ahead and move on.

I feel like making dreams come true.

It's this ONE thing you did.

I can’t deny it, I'm tired of trying.

There's nothin left to do but to keep on seein' you.

Memories just keep ringing bells.

I'm hoping you can keep a secret.

What do you say to taking chances? What do you say to jumping off the edge? Never knowing if there's solid ground below, or a hand to hold, or hell to pay...what do you say?

Choice, not chance, determines human destiny.

-Robert W. Ellis 

Here I am with my heart on the floor
and my love out the door
you should be knocking.

So....

...HOW does this work again?
The one I WANT doesn't know if they want me or someone else,
and the one I DON'T want, just wants me.
EFF everything.
Maybe this is all in me head...yea, thats it:)

The Dog Days Are Over.

90210.

‎An old Cherokee chief was teaching his grandson about life. "There's a great fight going on inside of all of us" he told him. "And it's a fight between two wolves. One is evil. He is anger, envy, guilt, sorrow and ego. And the other is good. He is joy, love, hope, truth and faith". The grandson asked, "Which wolf will win?" And the cheif replied, "The one you feed".

God, our heavenly father. Oh, God...and my father who is also in heaven. May the light of this flickering candle illuminate the night the way your spirit illuminates my soul. Can you hear me? Can you see me? Can you find me in this night? Are you near me? CAN you hear me? Can you help me not be frightened? Looking at the skies I seem to see a million eyes, which ones are yours? Where are you now that yesterday has waved goodbye and closed its doors? The night is so much darker...the wind is so much colder. The world I see is so much bigger now that I'm alone. Please forgive me, try to understand me. Don't you know I had no choice? Can you hear me praying? Anything I'm saying? Even though the night is filled with voices? I remember everything you taught me. Every book I've ever read. Can all the words in all the books help me to face what lies ahead? The trees are so much taller and I feel so much smaller. The moon is twice as lonely and the stars are half as bright.

Jesus, how I love you.
Jesus, how I need you.
Jesus, how I miss you...wishing me...
.."goodnight".

STRENGTH for today and bright hope for tomorrow.

Morning by morning, new mercies I see.

No power of hell, no scheme of man
Could ever pluck me from His hand
Til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I stand

So don't you bring me down today.

Now and then, I get insecure from all the pain,

 I'm so ashamed.

Everyday is so wonderful.

Forever united here somehow..

I guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for trying to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too.

Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you.

Smile though your heart is aching 

Smile even though it's breaking. 

When there are clouds in the sky 

you'll get by. 

If you smile through your pain and sorrow 

Smile and maybe tomorrow 

You'll see the sun come shining through 

For you. 

Light up your face with gladness, 

Hide every trace of sadness. 

Although a tear may be ever so near 

That's the time you must keep on trying 

Smile, what's the use of crying. 

You'll find that life is still worthwhile- 

If you just smile.

There's a light in the darkness of everybody's life.

Nobody told me the road would be easy....

....but I don't believe he's brought me this far to leave me.

We shine brighter than the stars together.

I'm in a Dream Awake.

Was I asleep the first time we embraced?

So tell me...

...have we been here before?

I know I've been lost in your smile many times,

but not this way before.

Saw you alone in the shade of the night, 
A distant reflection I caught in my eye 

Love doesn't run away
People do.

Since you went away,

All I do is cry.

Sometimes,
I'm afraid I'm only writing this book
to give my characters the happy ending I never got.

I don't want to be the same as everyone else.
it's not so much that I want to be different, I want to be better.
And that makes me ashamed.

One less bell to answer...

The heart of worship is surrender.
Worship is not just music,
not just church or bible reading or prayer.
Worship is everything you do
that brings glory to God.
It is what you have been created for,
and it brings God pleasure.

Worship is a lifestyle.

A chair is still a chair....

...even if there is no one sitting there.

[...bittersweet.]

I wish I spent more than a third of my life sleeping. 

Sleep is the only time you have full control

and imagination without logic and laws

and boundaries.

--Marianne Williamson

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

never

let go of someone you can't go a day without thinking about.

Bittersweet.

Rest In Peace Grandpa.

Although I never got meet you, please know I loved you

and I'm sorry that I never took the opportunity   to come see you 

especially when my father begged me to,  EVERY summer.

How I wish I would've just taken that week off work, and flown to Jamaica...Fuck.

Here come the tears again...I know you'll never see this, but I have to put it somewhere...say it somewhere.

It 's so strange though, everytime I leave for school someone I care about dies..why is this you think?

I swear,  if this shit happens again  this year in September, I'm turning right around, 

because I would LOVE to be with your son and grandson right now as they mourn

but I can't , because as you died, I was on a plane to Alberta, my fucking luck right?

God, how my dad needs me right now...what the hell am I doing here?

Speaking of God, I'm not mad at you, don't worry.

I'm just sad that I can't be with them. That  this is how the peices have all fallen.

I know he will never hear me say any of this Lord, but I pray that  somehow impressed upon him that I loved him and planned to see him, I just can't believe that I'm too late.

And I'll never get another opportunity to.

Well, if this is how you'll have it Lord than so be it.

can't turn back the clock, but I wish I could.

Or I wish you would.

Dear God, how am I supposed to move on from this?

How am I supposed to be strong, or keep a happy face?

I'll try Lord, but i'ma need your help....I don't want to break down in front of my friends. 

Another thing lord, PLEASE strengthen my father right now..he 's new to this.

Please soften his heart, and allow him to lean on you.

Please, the devil is going to try to separate you two now Lord

and he's come SO far since his baptism...PLEASE  impress it upon, and keep reminding him that you love him and want to comfort him in his time of need.

Please...for me...since I can't do it myself  right now...

Amen.

I love you Grandpa, I'll see you one day.

Even though I never really let go, and our memories always tend to come rushing back,

I'm happy. And nobody can change that.

"I feel horrible, because as much as you love me, compliment me, and make me feel beautiful, I'll never feel the same way that you feel about me".
--Hardtimes bud, sorry.

You are worth the fight,

but I can't fight forever.

I hate being the oldest. I have to do everything first, without any reference.
 I can't stumble, make my own mistakes, or be the crazy person that I am,
because I have everybody looking up to me.
And I wish with all my heart that they will never be like me.

YOU DON'T REALLY LOVE ME

YOU DON'T REALLY NEED ME

YOU DON'T REALLY WANT ME

YOU DON'T CARE A THING ABOUT ME

you just keep me hanging on

s3t m3 fr33

You claim you still care for me

but your heart and soul needs to be free.

Now that you've got your freedom

you wanna still hold on to me?

You don't want me for yourself

So let me find somebody else!

I'll stand by you

won't let nobody hurt you, I'll stand by you.
Take me in into your darkest hour
and I'll never desert you, I'll stand by you.

so let this fire consume my life.

The Father's ♥

Thank you, Lord, hallelujah
You've been so good to me
Thank you, Lord, hallelujah
I'm grateful for my blessings
I'm grateful for my struggles
Trials and tribulations I've been through
I've realized no one can love like You do
Thank you, Lord, hallelujah

I feel your presence near
Thank you, Lord, hallelujah
I won't hold back my tears
I gave you my trust
And you took me out of the dark rain
My Lord I survived it
I give You the praise
Lord, You've been so good
You've been so good to me
I'm so grateful for my blessings
Givin You all the praise

Jesus loves me, oh yes He does
For the Bible tells me so

Amen.

This time I want it all,
I'm showing you all my cards,
and giving you my heart.

I got my speakers going hammer

-BAMMER, BAMMER, BAMMER!

"The greatest pleasure in life is doing, what people say you cannot do"

Thank you lord,
for coming to this earth. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if you never did.
But then I snap back into reality and realize that I'm happier knowing you did.
One of your promises I wanna remember forever is:

"I loved you yesterday,

I love you still.

I always have
& I always will".

...ditto.

"I took this picture while thinking of the girl i love. the feeling of holding her in my arms and of talking to her and just seeing her. i really want to be with her, but i have not the courage to tell her. i am just trying to give her signs. but i am happy right now just because of that beautiful feeling =)"


PREACH bro.

PLEASE

get out of my head.