Torn Down.

I built this love in 20 years, made it brick by brick by brick. I reached my limit screaming gimmie more power I cannot quit. You don't know how our love is still standing. You won't get it...no you won't. Go ahead, shake the foundation. Just try to do damage, you can try man all you want. Cause we're high up beh beh, love sky scrapin. I might be crazy but I think when we're gone, our love’s gonna still stay strong.

Because of the way we made it

So don't tell me I can't build Rome in a day just 'cause THEY couldn't do it. If I took a whole lifetime trying to find a way, I'd be feeling useless. So, I'm gonna love you right now..
And it's so strong,

I don't know how I can be torn down.

You helped me answer all of my questions.

Well, I gave you some time

now i’ve made up my mind...

...move over, this is my time to shine

J-Rock is back on the grind.

I can go where I want n' do what I wanna do.

If you manage to defeat these odds against you

Keep doing your thing, cause I’m not mad at you!

I’m just trying to figure out where I fit into,

all of this now or if I do..

Too tempted to leave it in my rearview..


Because This Game Ain't What I'm Used To.

It ain't like I'm hurting or anything.

Should I Go?

Should I Stay?




I'm In Control



Either Way.

I wash my hands of you.

The Date has been marked.
& now, I will prove you wrong.
In the end, the only person you will FINALLY
have left to blame, is yourself.
Good luck, and may God have mercy on you because
I have something you'll NEVER have...

...faith.
♥

"It's hotter than......OUTSIDE" quotes, lmfao.

~I just want to begin by saying to Roosevelt E. Roosevelt, what it is, what it shall be, what it was. The weather out there today is hot and shitty with continued hot and shitty in the afternoon. Tomorrow a chance of continued crappy with a pissy weather front coming down from the north. Basically, it's hotter than a snake's ass in a wagon rut.~

~It's so hot I saw two trees fighting over a dog ~

~hotter than a whore house on nickel night~

watch 2:28 and on...ROFLL "happy hour at the man-hole"

one person's crazyness
is another person's reality

I have fallen into a trap.

just watch my wildest
dreams come true,

not one of them involving you.

when the
power of love
overcomes the love of power
the world will know peace.
--jimi hendrix.

Great show, watch it.

It sure is a long way up. But it's just a hill...we can climb it together.
--One Tree Hill.

I'll tell you somthing that I am sure of. We're all afraid. Some of us find ways to hide that fear and some of us don't. We've all got it...and it's always there.

I think I always knew you would be.

I Shall Believe.

Come to me now and lay your hands over me. Even if it's a lie say, "it will be alright", and I shall believe. Broken in two and I know you're onto me that "I only only come home when I'm so all alone". but I do believe. Open the door and show me your face tonight. I know it's true, "No one heals me like you", and you hold the key. Never again would I turn away from you. I'm so happy tonight and your love is alright. I do believe that not everything is gonna be the way you think it ought to be. It seems like every time I try to make it right it all comes down on me. Please say honestly, you won't give up on me...
& I shall believe.

I am finding myself at a loss for words and the funny thing is...

...it's ok.

I am fixed on you as the world flies by. I have lost myself in the blinding light. I am not my own, I have been erased. Like a canvas washed by the strokes of grace. This obsession is my call, owning body, mind, and soul. All I live for is to know you and be known. This obsession makes me whole, I give into its control. It consumes me like a fire withing my bones.

Unfortunately, a super-abundance of dreams is paid for by a growing potential for nightmares.

"A belief is not merely an idea the mind possesses. It is an idea that possesses the mind."

Birds sing after a storm. Why shouldn't people feel as free to delight in whatever sunlight remains to them?

Imagination is more important than knowledge.
Knowledge is limited.
Imagination encircles the world.

Try again, fail again. Fail better.

& I'm On My Way To Believing.

♥

You know,
if you tell the truth
you won't have to remember anything.

"The worth of a book is to be measured by what you can carry away from it"

The word "refresh," when used in the OT, has the meaning of “life” or “that which breathes.” In other words, it is as if the word soul were made into a verb. So, it gives the idea that, through resting, we are getting more life, more breath, more soul. Rest is important and basic to us as living humans. If we deny ourselves the rest we need, we are denying the fact that we are human.

Madea - let folks go

Someone once said that death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside of us while we live. And we tell ourselves that, "It's all gonna be ok"....but it's not ok. There's no magic in the world. Well, at least not today there isn't.

--One Tree Hill.

The Red Queen.

It's easy to think that having all the information
is the same as having all the answers.
--Smallville.

I didn't really know what my purpose was
until that rainy day.

Strawberry Swing.

they were sitting. they were sitting on the strawberry swing and every moment was so precious. they were sitting. they were talking under strawberry swing and everybody was all fighting wouldn't wanna waste a thing. cold, cold water bring me round, now my feet won't touch the ground. cold, cold water why'd you stay? when it's such… it's such a perfect day. i remember we were walking up to strawberry swing. I can't wait until the morning, i wouldn't wanna change a thing. people moving all the time inside a perfectly straight line . don't you wanna curve away? when it's such… it's such a perfect day.

now the sky could be blue, i don't mind. without you it's a waste of time. could be blue, could be grey. without you I’m just miles away ...

it feels like spring time in winter
it feels Christmas in June.

No matter what the people say, I'm gonna love you anyways.
You are my life...
..I can't let go.

Faith should depend on the word of God alone. If it depends on what happens, then it is uncertain and changeable. Faith is made stronger by using it. We must let patience have its perfect work. We need to remember that there are important promises in the Bible for those who depend on the Lord

I'll never let you go.

one
must
desire
something
to
be
alive.

everything you can imagine
is real,

Everyone
starts
small,

Let the music play

No, I could never be stuck living life like this.

We do not understand why in some cases there is clearly a miraculous example of the Lord’s healing, while for others healing comes over time. But we can believe that the Lord is working through both of these methods. Sometimes, for reasons we don't understand, healing does not come as we have prayed for. But the good news for us is that, even in these cases, we still can trust in the love, mercy, and goodness of God.

I hear the raindrops fall on my ragtop than come down the windshield of my car.

Clearly, you're my other half.

You know,
I was hoping that today i would have a change of heart
or that SOMETHING would feel different
..but it doesn't.
Last night, around 3...I actually went to bed upset
i think a little upset with God
and, a little upset with myself.
See, I was just sitting down watching TV and RANDOMLY, SO RANDOMLY it hit me.
"I honestly wish I didn't know you"
But then I laughed because that's not what I meant.
What I meant was, "I wish I didn't know you...now".
Like honestly, I wish God had placed us into each others lives
a LOT earlier or later on.
Because I feel like things would've..could've been different.
I feel like, if I knew you earlier, I would understand now.
Or maybe, if I knew you later, it would be easier.
You would've got your shit together, I would've had my shit together and well
things would be simpler.
But that's not life. Nothing's ever really easy anymore.
I feel like, if we met later on in life..all of this soul-searching and what-not would be done with
and by time we met, we could be just be cool.
Just laugh, and just have fun and not have all this..you know.
It's like, this part of life we would've gone thru and like we would have shit dealt with
and then by time we met, everything would be great.
Like look at us before!
We fuckin ROCKED!
Like, you were honestly one of my BEST FRIENDS in school!
Everyone was pree much jealous of us man, like no doubt.
Everyone would always say, "oh there's ___ & ____" or "Where's ____ & _____?"
It was never one without the other.
LMAO, like c'mawn, people even thought we had a "thing"!
and by PEOPLE, I mean "her".
Haha, but we love her. Even if she is secretly jealous of our relationship..and well...wants "in".;)
HAHA LMAOO oh maan, i hope she reads this.
But seriously,
could you imagine, if we had ACTUALLY met later on?
Or even earlier? My god, we would be thick as theives.
Man, i'd get you into sooo much shit.
And we'd laugh, and have fun, and TALK.
Actually TALK about shit!
Like Best friends are supposed too.
Like...Brothers are supposed too.
But instead, were stuck now.
You know, we laugh and joke and stuff
but truthfully
I don't really think I KNOW you.
Like I know who you are by person
but know you AS a person? No, i don't think I do.
And after being in someone's life for like almost 4 years
you'd think you would..
You know people always say, "It sucks when people you know, become people you knew".
Well, I consider them lucky because at they KNEW the person.
*sigh*
Honestly, if you're reading this, don't think this is your fault.
It's not.
I just don't think we should've met "now".
I wish we had met long before, or later.
Cause..
you're probably this GREAT person man...

...I just wish I could've known him better.

Bah-Boom.

"I won't even talk to her, and I won't even look at her. It'll be as if she doesn't exist"

I love when people say that.
Especially guys. Haha, i'm watching this show and this guy just said that to his girlfriend because of something that happened him and her bestfriend..in the past.
But, I laughed.
Why?

Because, it is impossible to forget someone like that.
Honestly, the only way that that is ever achieved..is if one of you die!
Trust me, from experience, it will never happen.
So please, get it OUT of your head.
Your a fool to even think that that is possible bud.
Wanna know why?
Because she lives and breathes.
And as long as you both are alive, you're bound to run into each other, or see her somewhere.
Now tell me, honestly, when you do, what are you gonna say? Or do?
Here's what your gonna do.
You'll be walking somewhere, maybe down the street or down the hall.
Or maybe you're at the same event, i don't know just imagining where you could run into her.
Then without warning, as your eyes may be floating across the room, or down the hall,
you see her and IF you're lucky she doesn't see you.
But honestly...you're never that lucky.
So then, your eyes meet.
And for a second, you think of everything that has happened to lead to that moment.
Everything that has happened, as to why you're the way you are now.
And then...you'll hear it.
You try to stop it with all your might, but you should've know better.
You should've known that it was inevitable, that you can't stop something like this.
It's like, "when an unstoppable force meets and impenitrable object".
But, just as if it were someone talking to you..you hear it go..."bah-boom".
Secretly..deep in that cavity in your chest.
You advert your eyes quickly (obviously) to try to pretend that that never happened.
You might even purposely start talking to someone else to try to ignore what you clearly just heard or who you clearly just saw.
But you can't ignore it, because you heard it.
& You can't pretend she wasn't there, because you saw her.
And she saw you.
And then THIS is the part where everything changes.
You start to wonder, "there is NO way she saw me".
(you know she did, but your in denial) so to prove something to yourself (or secretly, you just want another look) you look up.
And one of two things can happen.

1. You look up and she's gone and you go on with your life "pretending".
or
2. You look up, and there she is looking at you.

Either way, you'll hear it again
as if someone beside you was talking, you'll hear it.
Deep within that cavity...
..."Bah-Boom".

You've left me speechless.

Could we fix you, if you broke?
Is your punchline just a joke?

A pair of shoes

A pair of shoes tells you very much. it tells a whole story. imagine where these shoes have been, how many miles they walked, who was the person who wore them? question over questions. every pair tells his own story. those are the little things in life, which makes you think. so when you look at your shoes the next time, imagine what they have gone through...

You have a choice. Live or Die.
Every breath is a choice. Every minute is a choice.
To be or not to be.

if I could
wish one thing
I'd hear you
call my name

But it's far from over.

One thing about music:
When it hits
you feel no pain.

you know, your lookin' at a winner.

Bring it back!

all the things I know right now,
if I only knew back then.
I wish I could spin my world into reverse
just to have you back again.

If I could touch the sky,
I'd risk the fall
just to know how it feels to fly.
-A.K♥

~I never knew this feeling ever
but I hope it stays and last forever~

too many times, i've been wrong.
I guess being right takes to long.
I'd better find your love and I'd better find your heart.
But, I bet if I give all my love,
than nothings gonna tear us apart.

Ess-Dee-Ay.

For all you SDA'S out there and people just looking for SOMETHING to believe in:

I've recently subscribed to this page on facebook that gives morning statuses revealing more of God's word to us.
I've subscribed to it, and I think that you should too!
It's a GREAT way to start your day.
Here's the link:

http://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Seventh-Day-Adventist-Church/105040116119?v=wall&story_fbid=122923991053015#!/pages/The-Seventh-Day-Adventist-Church/105040116119?ref=ts

So every morning I will post what is said in the status.
Here is today's. May the Jesus continue to bless you, like he has me for these last 20 years:

"God's now at my side and I'm not afraid; who would dare lay a hand on me?" - Ps. 118: 6. We as Christians face a scary world out there. This is a world where anything can happen. But with our knowledge of God, we have a background to help us better understand the world. So, we can have hope and comfort even during the most troublesome times.

Amen.

And it kills me,
because you have everything right in front of you...
...and you can't even see it.

I can't even be bothered.

Take Pride in
Whatever it is
that makes you
Different.
Individuality is
what divides you
from the Rest.

Move on. It's just
a chapter in the past.
But don't close the book,
Just turn the page.

-There are things that
we don't want to happen
but have to accept.
things we don't want to know
but have to learn,
and people we can't live without
but have to let go.-

How could I not be moved?

this is my cry
my one desire
it's to be where you are
now and forever.
it's more than a song
it's my heart's desire.
it's to be with you
..just to be with you.

Journey to the past.

Heart, don't fail me now. Courage, don't desert me. Don't turn back now that we're here. People always say, "life is full of choices". No one ever mentions fear or how the world can seem so vast. On a journey to the past.
Somewhere down this road, I know someones waiting. Years of dreams just can't be wrong. Arms will open wide and I'll be safe and wanted. Finally, home where I belong. Well, starting now, I'm learning fast,
on this journey to the past.

Home
Love
Family
There was once a time I must've had them too.
Home
Love
Family
I will NEVER be complete until I find you!

One step at a time, one hope than another. Who knows where this road will go! Back to who I was, onto find my future. There are things my heart still needs to know. Lord, let this be a sign, let this road be mine. Let it lead me to my past.
and bring me home...
..at last.