Air Traffic

The bird is here and we are off to wherever those wings take us.
The atmosphere is crawling with airlines
that w i n d through the clouds and look down on the crowds.
Relax your back and let the noise sing you to sleep in my arms.
If you awake before we arrive I will carry you down and I won't make a sound.
The scent is strong as we move on and breathe in the pristine crime scene.
The false veneer is old like a substitute volunteer from, oh, some other year.
I'm just a show as far as I can tell, so I paint my eyes a light green.
The silver beams are twirling and swirling throughout your dreams like air traffic streams

To my motion fatigue, farewell

time together, is just never quite enough
when we're apart, whatever are you thinking of?
what will it take to make or break this hint of love?
so tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?

Yah, all the time.

Love, is all we need.

It must be a full moon
feel's like one of those nights.

18 Years later, and the world STILL isn't ready for this.

Neecolus, Neecolus, Neecolus.
Happy 18thh birthday big guy
I hope u had an amazing one
well, clearly you did, you hung out w/me, geez:p

It's gotten to the point where we just can't fake it.

AsI'mTryingJustToGetThingsRightIKillMyselfToMakeEverything
perfect for you

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY BRO!

I love you, more than words could ever describe.

I hope u had an AMAZING 12th birthday:)

It's true. We make a brighter day just u&me.

I will be there time, and time again.

This is a crazy world
These can be lonely times
It's hard to know who's on your side
Most of the time
Who can you really trust
Who do you really know
Is there anybody out there
Who can make you feel less alone
Sometimes you just can't make it on your own
If you have broken dreams
Just lay them all on me
I'll be the one who understands
So take my hand
If there is emptyness

You know I'll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone
I promise you you'll never walk alone
Everybody needs somebody who
they can pour they're heart and soul into

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend
When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am,

I've never heard that one before..

to 'let go' does not mean to stop caring.

it simply means that we can't do it for someone else.

Jailtime.

ROFL
jksss, me and machmoud WOULD catch that:p

Soon, I know I'll be back with you.

Friends. They really are the ones that can make you the happiest, aren't they? They're the ones that can turn a show about dying 1000 different ways from something horrible into something hilarious! It's also your friends that you can trust to leave in ur house alone while you run outside with one buddy who motives for his relationship with your dog are still CLEARLY unsure of..to get chicken wings! It's also your friends that you can chirp on CONSTANTLY about the stupid stuff that comes out of his mouth, but you all know that by the end of it, it's all love n laughs. It's also your friends that will mistake an onion basket for your compost bin. It's also those friends that will drain the battery of their van and ask you to give them a boost. It's also your friends that will walk up to a man in a police car at 11 o'clock at night wiht you to ask if they have jumper cables...(glad he didn't shoot us). And it's also your friends that will tell you their running away, but from where you're standing, they are CLEARLY galloping.

Finally, it's your friends that you will be able to re-tell this too, and laugh together as if it were happening all over again.

I gotta say, I'm really glad they're in my life.

Old moon fades into the new.

With enough time, we all find what we are looking for. And when time slows, and suddenly every moment counts, all you want is for this time to

l a s t f o r e v e r.

I'm bending time getting back to you.

when i'm weak (I draw strength from you)

and when you're lost (I know how to change your mood)

and when I'm down (You breathe life over me)

Even though we're miles apart,

we are eachother's (destiny)

it may seem hard to believe

but i'm doing just fine

getting along very well...

..without you in my life.

time, made me stronger

and you're no longer on my mind.

T.O.

Jenny: This is the best part of the song!
Eric: That part IS the whole song!

Nancy: *singing with her thumbs up* I vent to chinese reshtaulant..
Jenny stares at Nancy: WTF are you doing?!

Jenny: Let's go this way!
Nancy: No, chinatowns this way!
Jenny: Aw, okie.
Nancy: We shudda gone that way..
Jenny: LEALLY!?
Nancy: No.
Jenny: *sticks up finger*

Nancy grabs jenny's arm: C'mawwn, there's vunn in chinatownn!

Nancy: Let's go, or we'll never get to chinatowwnn!

Nancy: Let's go to the CN tower
Joe: Can't, jenny's broke
Nancy: Well she could just take money from her mom's account...
Joe: Yo, she's gonna get BEATS!
Nancy: True, CN tower will always be there..
Joe: Jenny won't if she touches that account!

Joe: Haha, yes the steam whistler.
Nancy: Joe that's the steam whiSTLE...
Joe smiling: Shutcho mout nanshee:)

Jenny getting scared of the dogs everywhere: Why are there SOO many dogs?! Like FCUK MY LIFE!

NansheePee-pee(Jenny)BANG-BANG(Joe)...and po(eric).

Good day with AMAZING ppl in the T.

Everyday we're alive can be a miracle

Faith is just believing in something beyond yourself, something you can’t feel, or smell, or touch, like hope or love.

It's never too late to realize what's important in your life to fight for it.

Don't worry, I noticed.

"The right thing to do, is never the easiest" Ha, I WISH someone would've told ME that before I got into this predicament. Ha, oh well. Its funny to see how one day at CHURCH can change e v e r y t h i n g! Wow, like I was on the fence MAD hard last night. Than, satan and his AMAZINGNESS...but not, definently gave me more than I could take last night in a dream. Ugh, what a BAD dream. Then this morning, I deff felt like, wow. I will never get over this.

BUT BAM!

Here comes God with a furyy! Whoo, and knocked satan right out of the park. Haha, see God knoows I hate to dwell. HATE IT. So, I decided that I love God more than I love...this situation. So, I let it go. And I started immediately feeling better about everything. They say, "The right thing to do is never the easiest". Of course it's not, but we have to remember the goal we're trying to achieve. For me, it's to be closer to God. And in order to do THAT, well..I gotta take one BIG leap. Like, this is gonna be HARD son. But, the prize in the end is worth it.

SO, here we goo, I take one leap for me and one leap for God.

Now...

..let's just see where I land.

Bad Habit

How many times am I gonna apologize about the same thing? And how many times can you take me back when you're not the one that's doin' wrong? See, I thought maybe if I started praying that it would get better, but when I would pray the answer would always come back to me being "done". God, I'm way out of my element just trying to learn new ways to live. Like, the way I live has gotta change. Gaah, honestly, have you ever loved somebody SO much that you were just to blind to see past all of the pain they were causing you? Like, have you ever loved somebody SOO much that you went against the right things that you should do?

Well, it's time to make a change. So, I told myself that I would make some changes. But it's like the more I change there's one thing that remains the same. I can't seem to shake ya. You seem to really have a hold on me. And when my mind is all made up, I turn around and slip up. Screw it, this can't go on now. I gotta move on now. You know one day you'll realize it's not the fact that I don't love you no more but, I gotta break this bad habit. I really can't take it anymore.

Better be soon.

I want to reconcile the violence in your h.e.a.r.t

I want to recognize your beauty's not just a m a s k

I want to exorcise the demonsfromyourpast

I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

i'mnotperfect

but, i keep trying.

Baby, there's a shark in the water.

All I ever really needed

was some space.

I needed some room to breathe

to.break.from.this.bad.energy.

Beautiful girls
all over the world
I could be chasing
but my time would be wasted
cause they've got nothing on you,
baby.
They might say "hi"
and I might say "hey"
But you shouldn't worry
about what they say
cause they've got nothing on you,
baby.

CUC.

On February 28th 2009, I boarded a plane with 4 of my friends for the first time to Alberta, and all we could definently think about, was how cold it was going to be. We ended up visiting our "future" University. We met alot of great people and had soo much fun (especially WEST ED MALL, holee crap, HUGE) By the end of the trip, I left a little unsure about where I wanted to end up, but I left knowing and loving a whole new bunch of people.


ONE YEAR LATER (almost): I returned. This time, with assurance and confidence in my heart that I was doing the right thing. This time, I went back with a new group of people. People I had really looked forward to going with. I got there, and saw the same people I had missed for literally a year, and it didn't take long for us get back in sync. But something was different. Something changed, and I know exactly what it was...my spirit. I don't think i've ever been more sure of a place like CUC, than I have been of anyplace in my life. For the last three days, I have laughed harder, lived harder, and definently loved ALOT harder than I probably should've. But you know what? It was worth it. I left that place with new feelings, new friends, and definently a new hope for my future. Oh and might I say....


...The future sure does look friendly.

InAlbertaTillWednesday!!

Aaaaaaaaaaannd the verdict IS....

well, today definently confirms yesterday.
things aren't going back to the way they were.
Not that I'm suprised like I said, but its still weird.
But hey, that comes with the territory right? *sighs* oh well, at least this way...well you know.
Change, you suck.
But I embrace you with arms wide opeen.
It's for my own good, I know. Its just gonna take some time
but hey, I'm glad it's now rather than later.

Taken By Love.

You've taken me by love

you've taken me by grace

you've taken me away, I can't resist

because you've taken my heart.

Winds of Change.

Can you feel the pains in life?

Wrapped around you like they're chains

restricting all your dreams?

Do you wonder if there is a way?

A way to set you free?

Do you feel the winds of change?

Soon this weight will fall away and take you to a place

Only found through these winds of change

A breeze that's new and free.

Someday, we'll sail away

mounted up on wings like eagles.

We will run and will not fade away.

So, tell me all your dreams.

And tell me all your fears

and what you're longing for the most.

It's not another way

That'll end up the same, for it's under my control.

I'll be the one who you can cry to

The one, who'll give you wings.

I'll give you wings

..to set you free.

youcan'tlosesomething

you never really had.

it's qualities like those that can turn someone you like into someone you love.

(Valentine's Day gives me hopee again..the movie, not the holiday:)

MARBLE SLAB CREAMERY.

Cookie...dough...drizzlleee, MMPH.

(p,s screw what it says about peanut butter cup)

Sometimes, I hear my own heart beating

hope

is the thing with feathers

that perches in the soul,

and sings the tune--without the words,

and never stops at all;

my heart's pleading

so freely

won't you set me free?

locked in love

maybe there's one who's

heart is worth more to you

than the one..you left behind.

you.bring.the.horizon.that.much.closer

If it's worth your while, say something.

so what's it gonna take?

not rock bottom, nor the deepest, or the worst.

it's gonna take change.

a different me, a wiser, much smarter me.

it has to begin with choice.

the choices I make, are being judged everyday.

by who? no one really knows,

but I have to pretend that you're watching.

it'll end, with character.

who I become because of it,

will determine who i'm gonna be

for the rest of my life.

but hey, it's all gotta start somewhere.

I might drop the world if I change hands.

"I look up to the sky
and now the world is mine.
I've known it all my life
I made it, I made it.
I used to dream about
the life I'm living now.
I know that there's no doubt
I made it, I made it.

only.exception.

When I was younger I saw my daddy crying

and curse at the wind.

He broke his own heart and I watched

as he tried to reassemble it.

And my momma swore

that she would never let herself forget.

And that was the day that I promised

I'd never sing of love if it does not exist.

Maybe I know somewhere

deep in my soul that love never lasts.

And we've got to find other ways

to make it alone or keep a.straight.face.

And I've always lived like this

keeping a comfortable distance.

And up until now I swore to myself

that I'm content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

I've got a tight grip on reality,

but I can't let go of what's in front of me here.

I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up.

Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream cause

You are the only exception..

..and I'm on my way to believing.

--Paramore

i've always lived like this.

"That's the thing about heroes.
No matter how much light you wanna shine on them,
they always wanna remain in the shadows."

--Smallville.

l i v i n g on e d g e.

Chloe: How do I know when to let go?

Oliver: It's all about your heart.

Just listen.

Right there in between the beats...

...that's when you let go.

--Smallville.

a l i v e.

You're alive.
Do something.
The directive in life, the moral imperative was so uncomplicated.
It could be expressed in single words, not complete sentences.
It sounded like this: Look. Listen. Choose. Act.

--b.hall.